Nicestea

Well yeah. So my new account is XD
So I will watch you all still. Oh yeah and remember to watch my new acc cuz I will not put anything to this account anymore. See ya whit Spicy san! >'D (Rice equals Ricy equals Spicy)

Finally I got the energy to do this. Thank god I don't have like 100 pic at here. *ZOMG*
Ugh.. It wasn't very easy cuz some of the pic didn't want to go to SCRAPBOOK!! *cursing*
Oh well.. I have planed to do a new DA account but how about my lovely watchers? Would you watch my new account too? And how about me..? x__x I watch many DA's to oh well. EDIT this later now I have to go. D<

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Journal update. So... tired.. I was in the town to 1:30 and today too whit my friends. My head hurts, but I don't mind. I think that my drawings are boring cuz they don't have any color or anything. So I try to color them and use my drawing table more.
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Soon at the weeks 39 and 40 I'm going to go work to a cindergarden. Scary children..
They're gonna kill meh!! *Panic* uh oh.. well. My friend is comming too so I hope everything goes fine. I hope..
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IMMA DOING A ROLEGAME PROJECT!! Again.. I have a good team and everything is set to ROCK´N ROLL BABY!! *Rofl*
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Last but not least. I'm going to a private bass school.. Alright! No more noicy kids. <3
Now I can practis more to come a better basist! Maybe me and my band will come play to in Tampere next year in Särkänniemi. Oh yeah.. and our drumer is going yo a private school too learning how to play drums better. Our hot guys who play the electricguitars ( 2 guys XD ). Dawn~ I can't wait. 'w'

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What should I say. Everything is back to normal, it's just that my feelings are jumping all the time Emo, über happy, normal, angst, happy, sad, happy..
God I'm happy that I still have and Enthius ( Henkka ).
Right now I'm confused cuz I was just so happy and then came this guy who started to call
me names. I don't even know who he was. Why do I have so bad luck? I shouldn't really think like that, but trying to think positive even if I feel like crap is making me crazy.
I.. I don't beleave I'm saying this, but I should need just a warm hug nao. ;.;
Protection and hugs makes me always happy. I wish I could be a teddy bear that everyone would hug me and love me. Dawn~ thinking of that makes me all warm and smile. xP
Eh.. well now I'll just stop confusing u and I'll give u some of my friends names.
You should check theyr DA :3

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Nao u all have to hug me ^.^

I understand now it clearly. Everyone sayis always that " You can trust me " but they don't really mean it. The ones who wants to help you are really as mean as the ones who doesn't care about you. They lie to you too " You can trust me " people really don't understand what that word means. When they hear your problems they want to help you and if you say no they don't hear you and goes tell the problem to someone else that they could that way get advise. What they don't know they have just broke the " You can trust me " word. Someone of those people could easily go to say the problem to the person what you would never want him/her to know. Then the all " You can trust me " helping hand has spoiled everything. You feel used and you fall to sorrow. I understand it myself.. no one.. not anymore. There is not a thing.. a person in this life that u can trust. There is just yourself you and your toughts. You and your own bath.. life. Why is life so cruel? We will never know. But to you people who someone trust. Don't never go tell those problems who that person holds to anyone. Not even if you think you're helping him/her. it's not true, cuz you can just make is life worser. Then you.. will be hated.. you will be blamed. At the end you're the one who everyone blames or just this one person. You will never gane his/her trust again. I may sound hard, but this is the real way. If you don't think you can't handle it. Don't tell your seacreds, probles to anyone. If you think you can not be trusted don't ever say the word " You can trust me " or " I'm here for you " cuz no one, not me not you who reads this, don't understand what those words really mean. Life is.. happiness.. sorrow.. hell.. love. But even if you feel betrayied, don't fall to your knees and beg for compassion. Stand tall and ceep you mind clear. Cuz these times come.. and go. We can't run away from it. But we can look it to face and say " I have my own life, and I know how to live it myself ". You are you no one else. You can't live for someone else or promises things that you can't ceep. Do what you can't and think before you do. Like everyone sayis, but don't say things what you don't mean. Just say what you think to the ones who you have to say it no one else. if the thing is too mean say it nicely. Feeling sorry for yourself doesn't help anything or others would just think you live a pitiful life what you can't handle. What I know off myself I say things what I don't mean and what I could do out whit. Someone could think I speak wisely and I'm a wise person, but thats not true. In my life I have done many stupid things what I regret now. How would I know all of this if I wouldn't have live it. Yes.. I'm just same as everyone. I'm no diferent. I don't say these things cuz I want respect or want to play cool and wise, no. I say these to you cuz I don't want you to do the same stupid, wrong things as I have. I don't want you to feel these cruel and detestable things. This sounds stupid but.. I care of people arround me, even if they have sayind bad things of me or others. I can't help it but I really want people to feel happy and smile. You who read this.. I may not know you.. but you're the ones I care about too. There is no one I hate. I may have sayid to some one " I HATE YOU! " but I don't mean it. Cuz even the person who ones tryied to kill me.. well I feel bad for him cuz he's things doesn't go so well. I would want to help him, but I think that if I would try to offer my "helping hand" to him I would just make him more sad/mad cuz the person what he so wanted to see dead wants to help him. And I would just make him more angry to me cuz he would think I just feel sorry for him. But there is no way you can help everyone. That's the way of life.. hehe. That's just the way of life what we can't change.